Life is full of surprises. There is always a new adventure hiding around the next corner. As everyone knows, Chicago is my city. I love it there, I am happiest there, and I live over five hours away from there. I did, however, make a trip to the city a little over a week ago for the gay pride parade. Let me tell you, it was everything I dreamed it would be and more. I went with my brother and two friends and we had a blast. I bought a rainbow flag that says Born This Way, I rocked the parade without a shirt, and I got a lot of goodies thrown my way. It was truly one of the best days of my life. I even met one of the sexiest guys I have ever met at the train station. I could barely bring myself to get on the train just to go back to Beecher, let alone get on the train to come back to St. Louis.
This is when I made one of the biggest decisions of my college career. I have decided that I am going to apply to transfer to a pharmacy school in Chicago. I believe that it is going to be one of the best decisions I have made in a very long time. It was also an extremely hard decision for me to make. As I have mentioned in a few of my blog posts, I have made some of the best friends while I have been out here. I have the best close group circle a person could ask for, and I also have a lot of amazing friends that aren’t in my inner-circle that are going to be hard to leave. I feel like I have betrayed them to some extent, but even so they have been nothing but supportive of my decision. They all know how much my city means to me and how much I want to go back to it.
I do want to clear the air about something. A lot of people have asked me why I moved to St. Louis in the first place if I love Chicago so much. The answer is pretty simple, actually. I chose STLCOP partially because it was not extremely far from Chicago but also because of how quick the program was. The PCAT is not required, taking away part of the stress of school, and it is a guaranteed six year program assuming that you pass every class. Another big reason for choosing St. Louis was because I needed to move out. I was going to be able to commute to Chicago if I chose a school up there. That was not about to happen. I needed to move out of my house. I needed to experience the world under my terms. It has truly made all of the difference.
Now conditions are different. My parents are moving south, so I will have to find a place in the city to live. But even if they didn’t move I would still choose to live in the city because it would be extremely hard for me to transition back into living with my parents. They aren’t a fan of me coming back home at two in the morning, showering, and being back up at six or seven in the morning to start a new day. In addition, the PCAT is not going to be as hard because of the pharmacy applications of all of my classes I have taken at STLCOP. I am looking at these two years here as a super expensive community college that was forever and a half away from where I want to be. My stress levels will still be high in Chicago, but I’m sure they can’t be anything in comparison to STLCOP.
This is just a shout out to some of the people that I am leaving. I am going to miss randomly texting Leah up to tell her we need to go on an adventure to the mall or to the river. I am going to miss the fun “games” McKinzie and I play when we need to relieve stress. I am going to miss my walks through Forest Park with Greg past the Spider Tree. I am going to miss my fights over stupid stuff with Clancey. I am going to miss Mackinzie’s southern accent and Struggle’s very blunt attitude. I am going to miss my one-on-one dinner dates with Jocelyn while we talk about everything and everything. I am going to miss Liz yelling at me for starting our friendship off on a lie and I am going to miss obsessing over tea with Libby. I am going to miss Patrick shaking his head at me for no reason other than I said hi or smiled at him. I am going to miss my bike rides with Casey and I am going to miss how positive Merissa is no matter what. I am going to miss Wiggles always being lost at some point in the conversation. I am going to miss the weekly Applebee’s trips and the fun nights at Wild Country. I am going to miss hanging out with Tasha at the Kappa Psi house while we swim and talk about everything. I am going to miss the regular insults from Casey. I’ll really miss the real talks with Kacee and smoking hookah with Katelyn. And those are just the friends I have solid memories with. There are tons of other people that I am going to miss that I have gotten to know through eating terrible meals in the dorms with. I’ll miss the people who talked through class with me because the teacher was going off on some rant about something that only the teacher knows about. This is why it is going to be so hard for me. In just under a year I have forged such strong bonds with so many people. They have been there for me through thick and then, when I was doing incredibly stupid things, when I really just needed a shoulder to cry on, and when everything was amazing. I couldn’t ask for better friends, and it is going to kill me on my ride back home after second year.
Back to a happier note, I still have another year. That is the same amount of time I have known most of these people, so there is still plenty of time for me to make new memories to take with me as I leave. I still have time to teach the incoming first year students my shenanigans. So for now I look to the future with bright eyes. I am going to love my friends and I am going to enjoy every second I have with them. Here is to you guys, the people that have made my year away from my city the best year of my life.